After four days of being on the go, whether I wanted it or not, I needed a day of rest. I did not make good on my determination to make the most of the day nor did I exactly waste the day away. The day was spent somewhere in between, getting just enough done to keep me from berating myself. Yet not accomplishing enough to allow me to sink my head into my pillow satisfied with the fruits of my labor.
With just one more day off, reality is setting in. The high of the elongated weekend already wearing off. I wonder why I just didn't ask for the whole week off. I wonder why I didn't ask for two weeks. I am not ready for reality. I am not ready to go back to work.
Even more, I am not ready to go back to chemo.
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