2013/243 Fire in the Sky

It was a long day at work today, but thankfully, I had one of the best lunches I've had in a long time. It kept me going. Seriously, the bread was so good, I could go back tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that.

It was a turkey sandwich on country bread (at least that's what I thought it was). The bread itself was so ridiculously soft that I could have slept on it. And the crust, oh the crust, it was crusty with grains all over the top of it.

I was hoping to leave the office by 3:30pm, but I didn't get out of there until shortly after 4:00pm. Didn't matter, there was a cool breeze as I walked to my car so I put the top back and cruised over to Old Town Orange, treated myself to a Grape Float and took pictures galore. It was wonderful.

And the best part was still yet to come. As I drove home, the sunset was like fire in the sky. It's going to be a good weekend.

2013/242 Praising God All the Way

After not one, but TWO weeks off of chemo, it was time to get back on the program. I wasn't looking forward to it, but not going was not an option. I was a bit apprehensive about the port after all the trouble Jesse had accessing it the last time. I made doubly sure to remember to put on the lidocaine just in case. 

I was so thankful that there was no trouble this time at all. With the disappointment I felt yesterday with the test results, I didn't need another reason for a pity party. The walk back to my car from the infusion center had much more pep than it did yesterday. I was praising God all the way to the car and all the way home. 

But even if there was trouble accessing the port, I still would have praised God all the way. 

2013/241 What am I Doing with the Rest of My Life

Had my monthly check up today. First I had to get my blood test which I cut a little too close to the doctor's appointment for my own comfort. After the drill, I walked towards the lobby when tears suddenly came from nowhere. Even after four years of this, there are times when I can't believe this is my life.

I was expecting a long wait for the doctor since he had been on vacation for over two weeks and as a result, I knew he was over booked this week. It was a pleasant surprise when he came walking through the door just a few moments after the nurse showed me to the examination room. After an exchange of pleasantries, he went through my test results.

The bottom line, there wasn't much change in the numbers. My CA27-27 from last month as compared to the month before had gone up about 10 points. He didn't make a big deal about it, saying something like the numbers had stabilized, but I was rather disappointed. He scheduled me for two more months of chemo with a bone scan in between and I went on my not so merry way.

As I walked to the parking lot, the tears threatened to make another appearance, but I pushed them back. I didn't want to take myself there. I put my trust in the Lord, not in some test results. Sure instead of 237, they are now 248, but they've been as high as 900 and I've survived.

Still, I couldn't help but wonder, what am I doing with my life? Am I prepared for what's ahead.

2013/240 Off Kilter

I prayed on my way to work this morning. Prayed for patience. Prayed for humbleness. Prayed for kindness. And still I was off kilter. An afternoon meeting did nothing to set me straight. I left the office grumpy and frustrated.

A drive home with the top down did wonders.

2013/238 & 239 Home Again and a Celebration

Back at home on Sunday, guess where I had to go.....

Celebrating my baby girl's first birthday a few weeks early. She's walking already!

2013/235-237

Thursday was spent celebrating Grant's High School graduation. Such a wonderful blessing to be a part of the festivities. Eliz was so proud and happy. We all were. While we waited in the stands for the ceremony to begin, they had a montage of the graduates sending a message of love and thanks to their loved ones. We got to hear Grant's call out five time. Every time we clapped we heard his message, we cheered and, yes, cried.

Upon learning that Brie wouldn't be home on Friday, we decided to stay one more day. At first the plan was to drive to the Bay Area to see a historic mansion, but after the week, we were tired out. Instead we enjoyed a leisurely breakfast, followed by a drive to Historic Roseville and Old Auburn.

Saturday morning, we rose early, took our time getting ready and said our goodbyes at 9:30am. I was sad to leave, but anxious to see our little Belle and sleep in my own bed again.

Looking forward to another visit very soon.

2013/234 The Best Part of the Day

Spending some one on one time with my lovely niece

was the best part of my day.